Something happened this week....
At first it seemed very significant, but in a negative way. I started to feel a lot of anxiety. Literally, nothing happened to me and nothing changed in my life (at least for the time being) and still, I was completely shaken. It impacted my mood. It made me irritable and frustrated and most unfortunately, it even caused me to be grumpy with my kids and they didn't deserve that. They are completely innocent and have zero control over the situation. I'm not happy with myself for that, but I'm learning from it.
I had to bite my tongue a lot. I needed to retreat from the world a little bit, especially social media. I hadn't dipped into my CBD in quite some time, but boy did that stuff get used this week. So many thoughts crossed my head, and many of them were connected to fear, outrage, sadness, disappointment, anger, frustration, and even hatred. I'm not a fan of these feelings or this mood. Still, a darkness swept over me that had me feeling trapped in a storm of these messy feelings.
Today I came across a lovely message shared by a friend that had the most beautiful impact on me. She reminded me that the sun is still shining, the grass is growing, the birds are singing, and much more. Most importantly, her message reminded me that family is well and right in front of me. My kids are healthy and growing. My husband is well and here with me caring for our family and working to build this life together. We are blessed with amazing friends and family and those bonds are strong.
And most importantly, God's promise to us remains FIRM. He will not be shaken. His love & promises for eternal life can never be taken away. His work and his sacrifice was made so very long ago. He gave us the power to live our life with intention and to live it fully with the free will that he blessed us with, and we have the God given right and the power to do GOOD with that free will. He is the LIGHT and we are here to shine that light in HIS name.
I will not be shaken. I will not be tempted by the ways of the world. I will not give in to the desires of the world. I will not fall to lies and deceit. I will keep my eyes on HIM, the one who leads me. I will make my focus to spread His light and love to the world. The only power the evil of the world has over me is the power that I give it. I gave up too much of my power this week. I gave in to worry & fear. I cannot stand firm in my FAITH when I stand in FEAR. I must remember:
Romans 8:30-32
And those whom he predestined he also called; and those whom he called he also justified; and those whom he justified he also glorified. What then are we to say about these things? If God is for us, who is against us?
At first it seemed very significant, but in a negative way. I started to feel a lot of anxiety. Literally, nothing happened to me and nothing changed in my life (at least for the time being) and still, I was completely shaken. It impacted my mood. It made me irritable and frustrated and most unfortunately, it even caused me to be grumpy with my kids and they didn't deserve that. They are completely innocent and have zero control over the situation. I'm not happy with myself for that, but I'm learning from it.
I had to bite my tongue a lot. I needed to retreat from the world a little bit, especially social media. I hadn't dipped into my CBD in quite some time, but boy did that stuff get used this week. So many thoughts crossed my head, and many of them were connected to fear, outrage, sadness, disappointment, anger, frustration, and even hatred. I'm not a fan of these feelings or this mood. Still, a darkness swept over me that had me feeling trapped in a storm of these messy feelings.
Today I came across a lovely message shared by a friend that had the most beautiful impact on me. She reminded me that the sun is still shining, the grass is growing, the birds are singing, and much more. Most importantly, her message reminded me that family is well and right in front of me. My kids are healthy and growing. My husband is well and here with me caring for our family and working to build this life together. We are blessed with amazing friends and family and those bonds are strong.
And most importantly, God's promise to us remains FIRM. He will not be shaken. His love & promises for eternal life can never be taken away. His work and his sacrifice was made so very long ago. He gave us the power to live our life with intention and to live it fully with the free will that he blessed us with, and we have the God given right and the power to do GOOD with that free will. He is the LIGHT and we are here to shine that light in HIS name.
I will not be shaken. I will not be tempted by the ways of the world. I will not give in to the desires of the world. I will not fall to lies and deceit. I will keep my eyes on HIM, the one who leads me. I will make my focus to spread His light and love to the world. The only power the evil of the world has over me is the power that I give it. I gave up too much of my power this week. I gave in to worry & fear. I cannot stand firm in my FAITH when I stand in FEAR. I must remember:
Romans 8:30-32
And those whom he predestined he also called; and those whom he called he also justified; and those whom he justified he also glorified. What then are we to say about these things? If God is for us, who is against us?
He who did not withhold his own Son, but gave him up for all of us, will he not with him also give us everything else?
The promises (and the threats) of this world mean nothing when we are focused on the Lord, who gives us all things. He gave us the miracle of life, did he not? He gave us His Son and he promised us an eternal life, but not this one here... I will not freely give my power to this world; it truly has no power over me, nor should it over you.
This Holy Cross hangs on the wall of my home in a space where I spend a great deal of my time. I shouldn't need any greater reminder than this. However, I'm so thankful for the friend that brought me back into His light today. I'm thankful that God put such beautiful people in my life to raise my chin and my head above the clouds when I get distracted and lost in the darkness. As I rocked my baby to sleep tonight, I thought of God's light within me and sang to him: "This little light of mine, I'm going to let it shine, let it shine, let it shine, let it shine, let it shine. Don't let anyone blow it out, I'm going to let it shine..." It is my duty as their mother to be a light and lead them to also shine their light in this world.
I'm sending you my light and my love. My prayer is that you will continue to pass it along. It is YOUR TIME to be a LIGHT. Don't let ANYONE blow it out. Just SHINE and remind others that God has a plan in all this, and it is greater than we can ever imagine. He gave us the light & the power long before we took our first breath. When you are seeking the TRUTH...seek HIM...focus on His LIGHT. And remember....
If God is for us, who is against us?
He who did not withhold his own Son, but gave him up for all of us, will he not with him also give us everything else?
Stay Fierce & Free my friends. It is your God-given right.
With love,
Sadie
P.S. If you read my last blog...I almost didn't sit down to write this. I was going to fold the laundry instead. I felt the urge and the words in my head. I remembered that I promise myself that freedom and I also felt that nudge from Him telling me this was more important than the laundry. So just a reminder...the world needs YOU now, and the laundry can wait.
